Today I have a real life story…..a week ago I went to a ladies get together and there discussed my ideas of bringing Quran into our lives. Well one of the listeners called yesterday that she wanted to talk to me…I said ok fine and although I was just starting to write on my project, I welcomed her. But she just started talking of how bad people are and they don’t listen if you call them to deen and all that. She told me a lot of details which I didn’t think were necessary for a first time talk on the phone. I got very put off that all she wants is to chat and has no ideas of working or using her energies as she said she is totally free and doing nothing except watching tv and talking to friends. I thought to myself what a waste and then told her that time is so precious and on the day of judgement Allah will not ask us about the people we are criticizing but we He will definitely question us that he put an extra awareness in us about deen so did we learn it and spread it to others? So I politely excused myself that I am busy right now but she should really start thinking about what to do with this life and then get back to me…..we will discuss it. Anyway after I hung up on her, I started feeling guilty that maybe I was too hard on her and what if I had been in her place…..How could she have known that I am thoroughly fed up of people who think that to be religious means you lead a stagnant life, and just keep blaming others for your inactivity. But I felt really worried that Allah might be displeased with me for being so blunt. Anyway I spent quite some time doing istaghfaar and only then I continued with my work. Today when I started to write, again the feeling began to trouble me that I am so arrogant and I think myself better than those unfortunate people who still have not come out of their illusions. Maybe I am also in some kind of illusion of self righteousness without even being aware of it…..Again did tauba but then I thought that I should call her and say some nice encouraging thing….innal hasanaat yuzhibnassayyiaat…(certainly good deeds take away the bad deeds) therefore I found her number and called her. She sounded quite preoccupied so I asked her if she was busy. Imagine my surprise when she told me she was doing her first lesson of Taleem-ul-Quran which she had started last evening!!! She sounded so happy that immediately after talking to me she had called Al-Huda school through some referrence and they had arranged everything for her within the same day and now she was listening to her first class!!
Allah guides to His light whoever He wishes to……and once again I have learned a great lesson….not to feel contempt for others….always be open hearted….and kind and gentle….even if I am not like this by nature….I am very critical….but inshaAllah I will learn, because this is what I am….a student of Quran….still in grade-1….learning the first lesson that all praise is for Allah….and so we have nothing to be arrogant about.